Better Life With Steem || The Diary game || 29 October 2026 ||

Illness is a blessing from Allah. Only those who experience this blessing may understand that it is very difficult to live in this world. Some helpless girls like us, some helpless people wish for death. But when you go to the hospital, you can understand how much some people are fighting to survive. They are trying to live in this world for a few more days. But to tell the truth, I am so broken inside that I have hatred for this world. Now, even if I want to, I don't want to live in this world anymore. I often think that no one else has ever given me the amount of pain that this world has given me.

Sometimes I think about this, where my mother has not been happy, where she has suffered all her life, how can I think that I will be happy? Anyway, there are millions of pigs in the court of the Almighty God, I am still alive in this world, for which I must be grateful. I was completing my tasks in the morning, although I spoke to my mother at night and she said that she was very sick. I will take her to the doctor in the morning, so I have to finish cooking a little early.

First I asked my mother-in-law what to cook. She said that there was a curry before, you just have to cook the rice. But when she went to cook the rice, to be honest, I didn't know that she would want to eat so many kinds of curry. The rice was finished cooking. Now she said that she would fry the fish, fry the vegetables, and heat it up. My mood was really bad. She said that there was no need to do anything. Now, to be honest, I have learned from them that people's expressions change a lot, and I have understood this by watching them.

However, it may be right to treat him like that, but I can't do that because I think in my heart that if I treat this person badly, maybe that person will feel hurt, but in my case, no one ever thinks about it, don't think about it again. However, I have prepared the food, then I took a bath and cooked. I finished everything properly, but I didn't get time to eat because my mother was sick and kept calling, so I left the house in a hurry and took my little son with me.

Anyway, first I took her to a hospital because there was no doctor there, then I took her to another hospital, but the doctor I went to was also not there. Then, seeing my mother's condition, I showed her to another doctor. He gave her a lot of tests, and I completed all the tests. In fact, when I went to the doctor, the condition got worse while I was waiting for the report. Even then, there was nothing I could do because the doctor did not want to give me medicine without seeing the report. This was the biggest problem. Anyway, I managed everything. Then it was almost 3 pm before I could take the medicine.

In the afternoon, the doctor prayed again, ate and rested for a while, which caused some problems. However, we returned and took medicine within this time. After taking the medicine, I went to my mother's house. Your mother's health was very bad. I had to go there and make arrangements to cook again. Since my mother was sick, she couldn't cook, it's not that she didn't cook, I didn't say that I would go there, so maybe my mother didn't cook that way. However, I didn't say that because my mother was sick, so I completed the cooking on my own. A little later, I saw fish being caught with a fishing rod in my father's pond.

From there we got our share of fish again, Alhamdulillah, I fried as much as I got because I don't eat fish very much anyway, but I really like fried fish if it is fresh fish. Anyway, I fried the fish nicely with tomatoes, after that I didn't delay any longer since I hadn't eaten anything all day, my mother had told me many times to eat but I didn't eat it, I didn't like it, and my condition had already worsened while I was sitting at the doctor's. So without delay, I started eating rice with the fried fish. To be honest, I fried the fresh fish, and it was so much fun to eat that it is impossible to explain. I took two pieces, my mother said that you can take the rest too, but I didn't take it because I kept it for my father.

While cooking, it was almost 8 pm since we reached home a little after noon. Then we fed the boys and they ate the food like they did. Mom told me to eat again but I didn't feel like eating anymore. Then I told my mom to take medicine and then to sleep. Mom took a small amount of rice and took the medicine and went to bed. I was looking for work on my mobile for a while. I am currently tired of thinking about what I will do if I don't have work.

But even then, I kept asking Allah for help, hoping that He would surely help me. I was working on my mobile phone again. I don't know if I will get a job, but Insha Allah, I will definitely get one. If Allah helps me, I will. This is how I spent another day of my life. I am leaving here today, wishing you all good health. Stay well.