Can a Scorpio Rising really be in the spotlight?

As a scorpio rising, honestly it can be very exhausting being in the spotlight. For 5 years I was doing retreats, on line chart readings, live horoscope readings and speaking events. I truly did not enjoy it. In fact, I felt quite invisible.

About a couple of months ago, I started to really look into my chart and it revealed that I should be well hidden(scorpio) and write.

This was so me. This of course happen when I do thousands of charts, but not mine