The space never stays empty

10 years back when I moved to Oman, I was desperately looking for a job, I must have applied to nothing less than 100 companies, and it was so frustrating that I was not getting anything. Here in Oman, there are certain jobs that are Omanized and HR is one of them. It was frustrating that with 20 years of experience I was not getting a job due to this single rule of the country. Back in India when I was working, I could never imagine myself without a job. I always had this insecurity, what will happen if I quit working. I felt my financial independence will be at stake if I quit working. I had some most weird thoughts. I would always feel that without a job and a running income I would become a worthless person.

Now it's 10 years since I am not working in any full-time job, and I feel so good about it. If anyone would give me a full-time job at this stage, I would decline it, no matter whatever salary they would offer. I now feel like, I was tied up in chains with that routine and mindset. I have gained freedom in these last 10 years. Financially, hubby is taking care of me, and I keep doing my small things to have a little money of my own. Which I never expected I could be so much happy this way. At that point of time, I felt like no money, means I will have to give up on all my desires. Though hubby would tell me, that I am free to quit working at any time, but I did not have confidence. I just felt like I would become a dependent person.

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It happens in life; we are so much stuck up in our own beliefs that we cannot think beyond it. When one door closes in life, other surely opens up. Being fixed on beliefs can be grinding. When I look back, I feel like I was working like a machine in that time. Now I am free to design my day and weeks and months. I can travel any time I want, the days when I do not feel like working, I can pause, all this is freedom for me to choose of what I want.

We lose things in life and that's part of being human, in that moment it only feels like a loss. But giving some more time to life and keep walking, one day we look back and realize, I lost something and in the same process I found something that I didn't even know I needed.

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